Five Finger Death Punch vocalist Ivan Moody opened up on his struggles with alcohol addiction and how it affected the band, telling WZOR 94.7 :
“Anyone in recovery knows that isolation is the biggest enemy. And being in the industry that we are, I had to isolate myself. I lived on the bus or a hotel room, an airplane. No girlfriends, no family.
“My kids are everything to me and I never got to see ’em – I missed tons of moments and years. And so the bottle sang back to me, so to speak. It was the one thing that I could guarantee.
“And I was telling somebody a few weeks ago actually. When I was drunk, I knew how my life was gonna end. I planned on it. I was not gonna wake up one day or go into seizure and die. It’s just I was comfortable because I knew what was gonna happen. And now being sober, I don’t know how I’m gonna go and that’s a scary fucking thing. And I’ve met a lot of addicts that feel the same way.”
Ivan also talked about the latest, fifth attempt to kick the bottle, explaining why he feels it will stick this time around:
“I knew I was done during my detox. It took me seven and a half days just to detox. I couldn’t walk, I couldn’t go to the bathroom by myself, I couldn’t smoke a cigarette. I had a staff member actually sleep in the room with me for the first 38 hours just to make sure I didn’t go under.
“I blew a .36 when I went in, which anyone who knows anything knows means that was basically death. And I didn’t want to come out of it. I woke up the next day and I pissed that I was still alive.”